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I am from now on abdocating writing in my lj i dont really write in it anyways and when i do people never really read unless i post something whitch everyone else does so i dont see the need for it anymore i may do a new journal for friends only but i will change my lj name and only the people that i want to have will, thats if they want it , but then again i might not, i am with jeremy i think it is a waste of time just writing stuff that nopone replies to so yeah bye everyone.
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At this point in time my heart is broken and i dont feel like it can be mended, its gone she still has it and always will:
Day after day
Time pass away
N' I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show
To letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know
If I let you go
Night after night
I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
Its such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
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| A little fun |
[09 Feb 2004|03:06am] |
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ok so i was kinda bore tonight so i thought i would download some songs from the internet that i used to listen to when i was a little boy,it was xcellent it made me happy for once after the breakup, well i thik if you dont have anything to do sometime you should download them its funny, here are the songs i downloaded:
1)Flying wothout wings - Westlife
2)I have a dream - Westlife
3)Unbreakable - Westlife
4)Angels - Robbie Williams
5)I Swear - Boyz II Men
6)Hold my body tight - East 17
7)Keep on movin' - Five (my favourite of them all)
the ones i would download first are:
keep on movin'
angels
flying without wings
a lot of them sound well funny when i look back at them now but if you do download i hope you enjoy.=)
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[04 Feb 2004|08:21pm] |
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describe me in one word
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| Chantelle im soooooo sorry |
[31 Jan 2004|09:35pm] |
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ok whoever thinks its funny to go and sign on my name and talk shit to all my friends this is not funny, someone signed on as my screenname last nite and talked a bunch of shit to all my friends especially Chantelle,chantelle me and mike are so fucking sorry we dont know who is doing this but if i find out who it is im gonna kill you,chntelle me and mike feel SOOOO BAD we are sooo sorry i dont know who would do a thing like this but they have done it more than once and we are getting sick of it.I dont really know what to say but were sorry.
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[29 Jan 2004|11:34pm] |
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well i went to my babygirls house on wednesday and i had a great time we get along so well and my feelings keep getting stronger and stronger by the day i cant stop thinking about her i hope this proves to yall i have changed and i can keep a relationship and shes so perfect for me, but yeah some people can keep the same person , (JACOB) not pointing anyone out in particular.
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[24 Jan 2004|10:32am] |
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"Reasons Why I Love You"
First I would just have to say
Seeing you just brightens my day
When I look into your eyes I can see
The real feelings that you have for me.
I can see the things you don't want me to know
I can see the feelings that you don't show
When your hands slide down over my skin
The feelings of love will show again.
Happy and content is how I feel with you
You never make me upset or blue
You try to please me in every way
Which is one of the reasons you brighten my day.
You are in my thoughts both day and night
You bring in my morning light
As sleep consumes me, you are near
Either on my mind or laying there.
My dreams have been sweeter since we met
That day is a day I will never forget
If I had a day to live over again
That day in January is where I'd begin.
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| Tanya |
[21 Jan 2004|09:02pm] |
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This is my babygirl yaaaaaaaayyyyy
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[18 Jan 2004|12:39am] |
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im no longer blackflag7786 on aim , some fuck changed my password so i cant get it , if he offended you im soooo sorry but it wasnt me and the lies he said about me enhance LIES are in fact lies so i just want yall to , and the bitch is to much of a pussy to tell me who he is
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[17 Jan 2004|10:36pm] |
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I would like help if you can, i would like to get my friend a live journal but i dont have any codes so if anyone has a spare code then please can i have it for him, it would be much appreciated,
thanks
james
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| The Weekend |
[08 Dec 2003|12:58pm] |
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I had a great weekend i got to spend it with my stepdad Brian hes so kool,he picked me up at like 12:00 on saturday then we went to look at christmas presents for my mom hes gonna get her a gun (33mm) its kool then we listened to spice girls(bows head in shame) yes i listened to them , and we went eat then to this place called go ballistic its really kool , you pay $7 an hour and you get to play any game on any consol and you get to go online on the x box or playstation its fuckin kool we then went to the movies and saw cat in the hat and elf for the second time it was excelent, and he bought me the thing ive been looking for since before i can remember , the very first issue of Daredevil when he is yellow , ah well that was my weekend
Much luv
James
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ok every one seems to keep saying to e that tey dont know me so im gonna tell yall my life story in a simple way, its gonna be long but if you startt please read t the end.
OK i was born James Sam Hood Haim Wilson on july 07 1986 in a small town in scotland called Dunfermline.while i was in the hospital just a couple of days old my mom got up one day and left without me she didnt want me,i was a mistake so she just left me there,i grew up with many people i have 2 brothers and 3 sistes (brothers mike and darren, sisters amy, saphire,debbie)when i was 7 years old i got kicked out on to the streets with my then 5 year old sister(saphire)we lived i stole for us to survive and eat,during this time on the street i was raped by a guy ,i knew the guy but i would rather not talk about it or say his name,i did this for 2 years and then it just wasnt enough my sister sadly died at 7 years old i couldnt keep her living i tried and tried but i couldnt do it , i blame myself for her death ,maybe if i tried harder she would still be here today but when that happened thats when i gave up i turned myself in i had to go live with my great gran who was and still is my angel from heaven not a day goes bye without me thinking of her sadly she died when i was 13 and that was the first time i ever met my mom,id never seen or heard from her then one day it all happens and its like "oh yeah by the way james this is your mom" i mean i was sooooooo scared i didnt know what to say or do she was jusy like a stranger to me ,then i had to move in with my greatgrans cousins, and the man in that family would beat me up every day just to feel good,he would do it with his fists , feet , belt you name it anything he could find i would get hit with it,i talked to my mom everyday there and when i was 15 i decided to move over here with her, bt when i got here we didnt see eye to eye so she kicked me out to again for the second time, then i went to live with mike one of the most kind , generouse brothers anyone can have i love him truly with all my heart *tear runs down face* he means more than the world to me,and that brings me to where i am with all you lovely people i love you all , you are my family thank you,
James
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| this song is me |
[17 Nov 2003|02:24am] |
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Unwell - Matchbox 20 |
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All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
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| LETI |
[28 Oct 2003|11:57am] |
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ok yall know lucy,mikes girlfriend well her sister needs some sex so any of my friends who would liketo help he out then leave a comment she is 5"2 ,115lbs she has brown hair and brown eyes she is very hot trust me.
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Behind blue eyes-limp bizkits new song |
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As James, you have a natural interest in the welfare of your fellow man, and a desire to help and serve others in a humanitarian way. You are responsible and generous, although somewhat scattering and disorganized at times. Any jobs requiring systematic and conscientious effort, or involving any form of drudgery, dismay you. In your work, you would seek a position offering self-expression through contact with people, such as sales or teaching, or a position giving scope to your creative, artistic talents. You are good-natured and likeable, and people tend to confide in you and seek your advice in personal problems. Others sense your sincere interest and desire to help, and you can always be counted on to see the bright side of any problem. You enjoy making others happy and you never let your own problems "get you down" for any length of time, even though you do tend to worry too much at times. Your optimism can be a source of inspiration to others as well as yourself. In close personal relationships you are usually thoughtful and considerate. However, your natural interest in others, coupled with your sympathetic reaction to problems, could draw you into emotional situations which may be difficult to get out of. Health weakness would appear as skin conditions or ailments relative to the liver. A tendency to overeat quick-energy foods aggravates any health problems.
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[24 Oct 2003|04:14pm] |
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one day you'll ask me whats more important you of my life and i'll say my life,then you walk away not knowing yu are my life
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| whats been on my mind |
[23 Oct 2003|09:52pm] |
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linkin park- my december |
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well ive been thinking lately and ive been ging around fucking all these chiks, i mean i wont lie to you since friday i have fucked 5 different chiks and turned down one person,im just startingto feel like i should stop, i getting out of hand, i got a test and im cler i hav no diseases but i stil feel dirty.well i want more , i want a relationship,i want someone to love,grow old with,hold,cherrish, i want to be there for someone and them be there for me,i mean i am very piky with girls and the ones i really like either have a boyfriend or at me twice, well at least i trult know what i want now
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| the dedication |
[08 Oct 2003|12:47am] |
ok every month from now i will be dedicating a post to a friend who deserves it,this months friend is Jacob, i want you to know i thank you so much for understanding and being there for me, words cant describe how much you mean to me, you are the perfect friend,i want you to know i will always be there for you to till the day i die.you can always trust me as i can you, im so happy i got to meet you when i came here, you are a beautifull and wonderfull person,once again thank you, you just dont understand how much
Love James
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| read and reply (very important) |
[07 Oct 2003|11:37pm] |
Well you guys me and vanessa are back together and thisis why, she opened up her heart to me, this is what she said
james
sorry this has to be in a letter but i tried calling you, and you never returned me calls.have you been avoiding me or something,coz it seems that you have, especialy after i asked you about the whole me and you not together and you kissing two other people, but im trusting you and since you said it wasnt true then i believe you, i dont wanna play the feeling game and i dont want to be hurt again its always like this, lets fuck then ill avoid you , then when you ask me about it ill just break up with you,that shit is not kool and if thats what your planning then we should just break up now, and stop wasting each others time you know.its not fair and its not nice, you said you love me but it dosent feel that way,and im not sure i believe you,i cant, if you love someone then you care about them and you care about thier feelings and you stand up for them, i stood up for you and told all my friends off, then they didnt want me to be with you, and they didnt like you, that i told them what a great person you are,and i know your friends gave me a chance to, and im sorry for being a bitch to nicole, i felt threatened by her, like i already said and i feel so bad because she is so beautifull and loving, and she means a lot to you, so if thats whats bothering you then im sorry, im sorry please forgive me and im not being sarcastic either , and im not a lesbian, i want you james ok, not amanda not anybody, and it feels like this feeling isnt mutual i want more than a fuck buddy, i want someone to love,trust, and be happy with , and i dont want any drama,i think you made your decision about me to quickly, and if you want to think about it then do it,do what ever you need to see that im a real person with feelings(gasp) even though it may come as surprise, i dont wanna be hurt or fucked with, and dont think you understand how much physical, and emotioal pain ive already been through, from relationships and family, i really need to know how you feel about me coz if im gonna get hurt i want out now, before it gets to late, please
love
vanessa
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